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Meaning, Values & Purpose Overview
This video explains what I actually care about, what I'm building toward, and why all of this matters.
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1 What I Actually Care About
I care about: building systems that help people, creating spaces where people can be fully themselves, and turning pain into something that matters. I care about truth, integrity, and doing work that actually makes a difference.
This isn't abstract — it shows up in everything I build: QiOS, 713, Lumara, the portals, the guides. I'm trying to create tools and spaces that help people navigate complexity, find clarity, and build lives that actually work for them.
If you want to understand why I do what I do, it's because I believe that systems, clarity, and authentic connection can change lives. That's what I'm building toward, even when it's messy and hard and I'm not sure it's working.
Translation: what this means for you
- When I'm building something, it's because I believe it matters, not just because it's interesting.
- My work is connected to my values — I'm trying to turn my pain into something useful.
- Supporting my purpose means understanding what I'm building toward, not just what I'm avoiding.
2 What All This Pain Is In Service Of
All of this struggle — the ADHD, the overwhelm, the financial stress, the family patterns, the trauma — isn't just something I'm trying to survive. I'm trying to turn it into something that helps other people.
That's why I build systems, write guides, create portals, and share my story. I'm not trying to be a martyr or get attention — I'm trying to take everything I've learned the hard way and make it easier for other people who are struggling in similar ways.
If you want to support my purpose, understand that I'm not just trying to fix myself — I'm trying to build something that matters. The pain is real, but it's also fuel for something bigger.
What I'm building
QiOS
A cognitive operating system for managing complexity and building better systems.
713
Turning my story into something that helps others navigate similar struggles.
Lumara
Creating spaces where people can be fully themselves and build lives that work.
3 How to Support My Purpose Without Losing Yourself
What helps
Understanding that my work is connected to my values and purpose, not just a hobby or distraction.
Supporting my capacity to build without taking over or trying to "fix" my process.
Recognizing that I'm trying to turn pain into something useful, and that's meaningful work even when it's messy.
What doesn't help
Trying to "save" me or take over my work because you think I'm too broken to do it myself.
Dismissing my purpose as "too much" or expecting me to prioritize your needs over my calling.
Making my purpose about you — it's not about you. It's about what I'm trying to build for the people who need it.
4 If You Remember Nothing Else from Module 7
I'm building something
All of this struggle isn't just something I'm trying to survive — I'm trying to turn it into something that helps other people. That's my purpose.
Pain is fuel
The pain is real, but it's also fuel for something bigger. I'm not trying to fix myself — I'm trying to build something that matters.
Support, don't take over
The best support is understanding my purpose, supporting my capacity to build, and recognizing that this work matters — without trying to take it over or "fix" it.
Module 7 Summary
You've seen what I actually care about, what I'm building toward, and why all of this struggle matters. Understanding my purpose helps explain why I do what I do, even when it's hard and messy and I'm not sure it's working.
Key takeaways
- I'm building systems and spaces that help people navigate complexity and build better lives.
- All of this struggle is fuel for something bigger — I'm trying to turn pain into something useful.
- The best support is understanding my purpose and supporting my capacity to build, without taking over.
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